Today's post is not one of my typical posts. Today's post is about having an "off day". Oh, and I am off today. I want a break. Afterall, I am human and my plate overfloweth with many, many things. It started last night: I completed my graduate school assignment I have been working on and submitted it! Yeah! It was done and submitted! Accomplishment and feeling good, right? You betcha! I read the requirements for my next assignment due mid December. Well, if I were a very astute graduate student, I would have reviewed it earlier to find out I needed to collaborate with a school teacher for it. (Insert slight panic here). I will be fine. It will all work out, besides all I can do now is be proactive and STAY CALM.
Yes, I know all the breathing techniques and to stay calm. And I will stay calm and I actually look calm. On the inside however, I am a complete anxiety ridden mess, you betcha! (The tall cup of coffee I had a couple hours ago doesn't help either.)
This is another side of me I don't seem to portray in my blog, at least, not in my opinion. So, here's another confession.... I became scared and wanted to retreat out of the situation which was never a good thing when I was my "former" self. I am not her and I will keep moving forward! I told myself my new mantra or saying when I become scared or I was faced with an obstacle is to "Keep Moving Forward" even though, I want to run in the exact opposite direction, hide my head, bury it and make it go away. NOT HAPPENING! Not a chance. And once I get this all out of my head, I will be able to carry on and move forward. Sometimes, I just need to get it out and be done with it. Here I am in all my glory, somewhat unhinged, yet knowing it will all work out as it is meant to be.
I will stay the course and persevere as we all face our fears and anxieties. Today is one of those days for me. I will finish this rant and treat myself to some relaxation time, or so I say. Knowing me, I'll work on something else for one of my other classes!
Until then, I remain insanely sane, As ever it is!
Peace and Joy to you!
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